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I'm not really a creative writer ( yet ) so basically my blog is really just a log.
A log of the events in my life, that may be of no particular interest to anybody reading but me.
I don't mind that at all. in fact if you are reading all of this, and you are not me, either we are in a relationship and are sharing our lives with one another, or you are a creepy stalker.

If you are a creepy stalker, I invite you to feel free to stalk me, but I do not intend to give you any incentivie to pursue me further. You are probably creepy and have emotional issues, I cant deal with that.

Snapshot time:
Today I Rolled into work around 7:40 am. I worked till about 5:20. I set goals and have been learning about carrying a vision for the company. I got home and I played guitar. Dane came over, we went to mcdonalds with karrie and aimee.
I talked to people today. I have made many people laugh. Making people laugh is new to me. I am told I am funny. Thats pretty nice. Pretty much I have an awesome life.

Went looking at furniture at wallmart today. I will probably be moving out of my parents house soon and embarking on a new adventure in rome, God willing.

Hadyn's mom cut my hair today. That was pretty cool. Hadyn is one of my closest friends. I have no idea how the future is going to play out, but I would not complain if I got to be more than friends with her. She is one heck of an awesome person. probably my favorite person right now.

Sometimes she is really insecure. I wish she wasn't. She has no idea just how comparitively beautiful she is to other girls. Every guy practically has a crush on her.

Her mom told me she has alot of respect for me. thats something I highly value.

I need to keep better track of my money. I am giving up too much. Not that i am selfish, just it really should not be considered my money to begin with. I need to budget it. and budget it to glorify God.

Keeping Myself Going

Here recently, I have had trouble motivating myself to complete cloudburst. Work has become dreadful and tedious and I have not enjoyed it in the way that I normally would.

I have not been wise with my money lately. I have not eaten healthy lately or concentrated on that at all I have treated my body like crap. I do not work out. The only thing I do is keep my brain busy.

I was thinking I need to put my all into project cloudburst. work the time here, learn to enjoy it. When I get bored or stuck on something, move on to something in the same field, such as learning ruby, working on darkbot, or going into a future direction such as the cloudburst 2.0, and the details of our own running hypervisor.

My Stamp

Take a second, calm yourself down. You are working on a very large project, with heavy deadlines. Stressing yourself wont help you succeed.

You know in your head you do not want to put your stamp on this project. You do not feel it is up to par with your standards.

You have done everything you have known to do, and alot of the times you are at a loss for what to do next. Realize your flaws, look at them. Struggle with them and continue to grow. Trust in God and things will eventually work out in the end. He will never give you more than you can handle.

Continue to push yourself to do the things you hate to do, but know need to get done. this is what will set you apart from the rest. Take ownership in the work around you.