... And I love you for it.
Being away from you made me start thinking of things in the past. How you and I took a long walk in the woods with daniel and tried to get lost, and ended up on some road we have never seen before. How we walked past this guys house, and saw a bunch of tires, and weird satellite dishes. How it was a warm, somewhat rainy winter day. It was Christmas Eve, and I couldn't have had a happier one.
On the walk home, I started singing Laundry Day, from Dr. Horrible. I remember having wanted you to see it for a long time. I love how you love peace signs and recycling. I love You for your hippy like attitude. I love your taste in music, even though it is not the same as my own, when you are gone, I cant help but to listen to juno, showbread, and miss you greatly. I want to sit and watch curious George with you,
I want to be able to tuck you in at night again.Its the simple things about you that I miss so much. Nobody could ever take your place.I love your rebellious nature, and how you are halfway vegetarian.
Remember the time on Christmas eve, where we went to the mall and walked around in the woods.. That is one of my happiest memories. Daniel and I fought each other with our coats on the top of that little bridge over the creek. When it was time to take you home, chris and josh drove you guys home, but before that we sat outside in the parking lot splashing eachother with water. I remember feeling so anxious to stay by your side.
It hurts inside all the time to not see your face, hear your voice, or be there when you smile. I want you to smile more bekki. I love you. You mean soso so much to me.
I found out this morning... I was just randomly talking to jenna since she was the only one online at the moment. And was telling her that i missed you and stuff. Then she said she had to go since you were waking up. I didn't even know she was at your house. My heart almost leapt out of my chest just at the thought of you sitting there sleeping, wiping your eyes as you wake up. I wanted to be there and hug you.. Sit next to you. Or tuck you in as you go to bed. Every time I think of you, I initially have a surge of adrenaline like i just got pushed out of a jet aircraft. I just want to see your face, and talk to you. But then my spirits drown when i quickly remember, i can no longer speak.
Bekki, I love you with everything I am.. and I think the longest I have gone without thinking about you is 10 minutes.
I cant wait for you to be able to read these letters. And i cant wait to at least be able to tweet you with on twitter so everybody in the galaxy will know i love you.
