Keeping Myself Going

Here recently, I have had trouble motivating myself to complete cloudburst. Work has become dreadful and tedious and I have not enjoyed it in the way that I normally would.

I have not been wise with my money lately. I have not eaten healthy lately or concentrated on that at all I have treated my body like crap. I do not work out. The only thing I do is keep my brain busy.

I was thinking I need to put my all into project cloudburst. work the time here, learn to enjoy it. When I get bored or stuck on something, move on to something in the same field, such as learning ruby, working on darkbot, or going into a future direction such as the cloudburst 2.0, and the details of our own running hypervisor.

My Stamp

Take a second, calm yourself down. You are working on a very large project, with heavy deadlines. Stressing yourself wont help you succeed.

You know in your head you do not want to put your stamp on this project. You do not feel it is up to par with your standards.

You have done everything you have known to do, and alot of the times you are at a loss for what to do next. Realize your flaws, look at them. Struggle with them and continue to grow. Trust in God and things will eventually work out in the end. He will never give you more than you can handle.

Continue to push yourself to do the things you hate to do, but know need to get done. this is what will set you apart from the rest. Take ownership in the work around you.

Deception

What would the world be like if everybody were brutally honest. Instead of hiding behind insecurities.

What if when you asked somebody how they felt today, they might tell you that they deeply wanted to talk to you, but were afraid you would reject them?

What if people did not lie, and were truely held accountable for their actions? So many of the problems the world had would disappear, and true character and integrity could be found as a wellspring.

Lies are the blanket that cover sin, and the mask that allows us to suffer alone.